Monday, January 02, 2006
Something is coming... I can feel it.
Yesterday the church was reflecting on what God had done for us in 2005, and we realized it was a year of double blessings. The church grew by 2,000++ people, our leadership base is growing (but I don't want it to grow in NUMBERS... I want it to grow in QUALITY!!!), we've got 2 new ministries (actually, one was just a renaming of the Young Adults Ministry. But the community service ministry certainly was news to me!), the music ministry's been running around to get this whole Christmas recording thing done (and it was really a miracle when I actually had time to make up for it),.... stuff like that. And it's happened to me too in certain areas of my life. I won't say what because, quite frankly, it's not for you to know, lest you be jealous. Hurhurhur.
For some reason, I have a feeling that something is going to happen this year. Now I know feelings are just that: feelings. And they don't do much. But at church there was a sense of excitement, of anticipation, and a feeling of wholeness and completeness and wellness for the coming year. And it's going to be a year of major revamp for me too: I'll be out of school in April, I'm still deciding if I want to take an MBA in two years', I'll be working (and spending my own money for a change!), and.... well, let's just say I thought I heard Him say that "he" is coming.
At this point, I feel like a Sarah eavesdropping on Abraham's conversation with Jesus when He said she would get pregnant. I'm laughing in my heart. But I don't want to be disbelieving! Sarah conceived, and she had Issac. I had a 40.6degC fever, and I was extremely blessed that my brain cells didn't get completely fried. I'm just going to let it be, and enjoy what the year brings.
And now some bit of news that I need to let off my chest...
SL proposed to Z on Christmas Eve. I haven't seen the batu yet. Z is only one day younger than I am, and she's not even working yet. And she's getting MARRIED?! And my cousin's getting hitched in 2007. In the States.
So Abba has been extremely kind and generous and longsuffering with me (as with the rest of us, but I think especially me!). He's rekindled the fire for reading this year (except that Anna Karenina remains to be finished, even after more than a year of not reading it), and my desire to go deeper into His Book is stronger than ever. I'm hungry. And I'm thirsty. And I feel vulnerable because I know when I'm like this, I'm very open to a lot of things. I've been running around all week (between Christmas and New Year's), sleeping at 3am... there was hardly ever any time to sit down, enjoy a nice cuppa, being with friends (friends that I miss very dearly!), reading a good book, and listening to His Word. I've resorted to playing Pastor P's messages on the CD Player (which I am glad I didn't throw out. The batteries last longer too) as soon as I hit the bed, and the minute I wake up. Very Pastor Mark-ish, I know. The only difference is that my family doesn't know it, and they also know that I also listen to other preachers (Peter J. Daniels, Rev. Buddy Bell, Pastor Gary Clarke, Pastor Greg Laurie from Harvest, etc), so I have balance.
Going out with the Missus today. Tomorrow there is school. I'm not excited about that bit, but I do hope something productive comes out this semester!
For some reason, I have a feeling that something is going to happen this year. Now I know feelings are just that: feelings. And they don't do much. But at church there was a sense of excitement, of anticipation, and a feeling of wholeness and completeness and wellness for the coming year. And it's going to be a year of major revamp for me too: I'll be out of school in April, I'm still deciding if I want to take an MBA in two years', I'll be working (and spending my own money for a change!), and.... well, let's just say I thought I heard Him say that "he" is coming.
At this point, I feel like a Sarah eavesdropping on Abraham's conversation with Jesus when He said she would get pregnant. I'm laughing in my heart. But I don't want to be disbelieving! Sarah conceived, and she had Issac. I had a 40.6degC fever, and I was extremely blessed that my brain cells didn't get completely fried. I'm just going to let it be, and enjoy what the year brings.
And now some bit of news that I need to let off my chest...
SL proposed to Z on Christmas Eve. I haven't seen the batu yet. Z is only one day younger than I am, and she's not even working yet. And she's getting MARRIED?! And my cousin's getting hitched in 2007. In the States.
So Abba has been extremely kind and generous and longsuffering with me (as with the rest of us, but I think especially me!). He's rekindled the fire for reading this year (except that Anna Karenina remains to be finished, even after more than a year of not reading it), and my desire to go deeper into His Book is stronger than ever. I'm hungry. And I'm thirsty. And I feel vulnerable because I know when I'm like this, I'm very open to a lot of things. I've been running around all week (between Christmas and New Year's), sleeping at 3am... there was hardly ever any time to sit down, enjoy a nice cuppa, being with friends (friends that I miss very dearly!), reading a good book, and listening to His Word. I've resorted to playing Pastor P's messages on the CD Player (which I am glad I didn't throw out. The batteries last longer too) as soon as I hit the bed, and the minute I wake up. Very Pastor Mark-ish, I know. The only difference is that my family doesn't know it, and they also know that I also listen to other preachers (Peter J. Daniels, Rev. Buddy Bell, Pastor Gary Clarke, Pastor Greg Laurie from Harvest, etc), so I have balance.
Going out with the Missus today. Tomorrow there is school. I'm not excited about that bit, but I do hope something productive comes out this semester!
8:00 AM//Keep this post! 
